Oh, that's what makes the world go 'round.

I took an Organic Chemistry exam earlier. My work felt sloppy, but then again all of my tests in there feel sloppy. I hate that class, but our new professor's test was WAY easier than the previous professor's. A glimmer of hope has emerged from my many doubts and fears...

After my exam, I went home to rest, eat and rest. I ended up working on my schedule for the upcoming semesters and it quickly became anything but restful. I can't believe I haven't been on top of things before now. I recently went over the pre-reqs for vet school (at A&M) and there are courses which aren't under Biology, meaning I have to take extra courses outside of my normal ones...quite a few, in face. I also discovered today, in light of recent suspicions, that it's too late to CLEP out of English courses. I honestly knew this, in the back of my mind, but why, oh why haven't I been actively solving this problem? I have inadvertently dug myself into what appears to be a big damn hole. Now, there are solutions, of course, but I don't like them. Summer school is one, but this would mean I can't take on my DREAM internship (if I get it). Dropping my art minor for one more closely related to my major is another, but I think it's too late for that (not that I would want to, anyway). Graduating late is another unappealing option, but I really don't see that happening. It would mean a lapse of roughly half a year between schools, which I'm frightened of. However, maybe that would be a good thing? One year to intern, work with a veterinarian, save money, etc. The future is so big, and so close. I liked it much better at a distance, when it was fuzzy and unobtrusive.

I have another exam tomorrow: Cell Bio. The contrast between it and organic chemistry is startling. I really enjoy cell bio; it is interesting, complex, compelling (I know I'm weird) and I feel like someday it might actually make a difference for me. NOT Organic. Nope. Far from it. Can't I just lighten the load? Wouldn't that be so nice? They wouldn't have to waste the energy teaching me garbage, and I wouldn't have to waste my time trying to learn it. Whew, I'm bitter. I need to work out. I had planned on using this time to nap, but alas I have used it to vent. Both have healing properties, you see, but one still leaves me sleepy.