Rollercoaster Kristen

Things have been just hard for me lately. I am truely blessed with the people I have in my life; I know this because without them, I just don't know. ..The end of this semester has been...draining, emotionally and emotionally and intellectually and emotionally and the most unfortunate part is it has gotten me thinking about what kind of a person I am. It is really amazing how you go about things without really thinking about yourself. Amazing. It wouldn't be so bad except that when I do, I am very critical. There is just this voice inside me that loves to tear myself apart. You know--just rip it to shreds. It hurts. I just hate it when I do it, and it never really lasts, but with school and grades and projects and big decisions staring me in the face, I just haven't been able to avoid it lately. Too much, too big, too fast. The past few days have been the proverbial rollercoaster to the max. My birthday was very, very good; everything else, however, was just this horrific blur. And today...oh, my. Something today just left me reeling, then I was up and at it again with a positive attitude, then things happen and I'm feeling horrible. And now, thank goodness, I'm okay....Anyway, this whole entry is really me just screaming someone stop this rollercoaster right now before I fly out. They forgot to install the safety harness.