Qu'est ce que je fait?!

I'm at work. I have yet to work, however. NOT because I am being lazy, no. They simply haven't given me something to do. It's...infuriating. Frustrating. Vaguely insulting. They've told me repeatedly to make myself comfortable (I have), check in with various people (done) and then they make vague references to future projects, or all of the opportunities that I will have. PUT ME TO WORK!! I obviously do not have the knowledge, know-how or competency to be self-sufficient right now. I just barely received my badge, half the things they say confuse the hell out of me, and I'm NEW!!!!!! Why don't they get that?

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That was this morning. I was interrupted by my...boss? fellow? whatever, he's a graduate student...who asked if I wanted to go set bird traps. He's a very nice guy, distracted, but nice. Extremely intelligent. I said what the heck--let's go. It was HOT and HUMID and the grass/shrubs/weeds/vegetation/cacti were all taller than I was, thanks to all this rain. I was miserable, mosquito-bitten, itchy and the worst part was that I couldn't really even help. They barely even asked me, though to their credit, they did try. They were very kind. That's just not the problem. The whole trip was just a sympathy expedition for me because I'd been sitting at the computer all day. Needless to say, I am upset. It hurts so much to be SO EXCITED and then to be so incredibly disappointed. Just...deflated. Apparently, or so I was told, if I want something to do at all I'm going to have to do it myself. All of it. Make up my own idea for a project? I know, it's an INCREDIBLE opportunity. Amazing even. I have the go-ahead to do my own stuff. They don't get it though. I don't KNOW anything. I'm supposed be taught. I am not supposed to be teaching my freakin' self.

Yea, so...there's going to be a talk tomorrow. Per ultimatum