Why?

I've been thinking on how I feel around people. When am I the most myself? When do I feel the most comfortable, the least judged, the most at ease? With my family, of course. With Evan, I think most of all. Surprisingly, a few newer friends--Evan's San Antonio gang, for one. New friends from Tech. I have good people. One of the things I've been thinking of lately, though, are those in the past. I find myself farther and farther from those friends I used to know. I still know them now, but...I'm not as comfortable anymore. I'm different. I know I am. And that's okay. I feel okay about it now. It's not as dramatic as I was playing it up to be in my head.

bla bla bla i don't feel like writing anymore i'm thirsty and tired.